Holy sh*t, I just read the entry from last week and boy was surprised to realize how unclear I was. I saved a copy of the entry on the second page, to remind me how crazy it gets sometimes. Well let me try this again.
My best friend Ryan came down last weekend and I had so many expectations and plans for his weekend so when he got to Houston. Naturally I became so stressed about our plans, keep in mind that these plans, we didn't discuss. Ryan didn't really have a clue what I had planned for him so the pressure was basically self inflicted.
After an uncomfortable first day, I remembered my trip last year and what I learned from it, trust life and expect nothing, enjoy what is in front of you and just let go of yesterday and not worry about tomorrow, roll with the day and do what you feel. When was the last time you woke up without a chore or a to do list? and feeling comfortable, grateful for not having one. I remember it taking a months before I enjoyed my workless days and getting over the worry of being label irresponsible or lazy. Once I did though, oh man what a feeling, I felt so young and free. Ever since I started working and living on my own, Its been difficult to have a listless day. It is really a very hard balance to keep. To stay free, list free (for the lack of a better word) and still be responsible.
The second day on Ryan's day, I let go of all my plans and worries. I looked at Ryan and rolled with the day. The fun started off slow and then it just snowballed.. I didn't want it to end. We ate, we drank and we skated. We found new places and met some interesting characters. My body is wrecked but it was worth it.
well I hope this is a better explanation :)... give me a break I was up 24 hours when I entered that entry. :) Have a good day.
live, love and laugh.
It was basically the theme of the weekend. He came down we had plans then we dropped it and just went along. Had some goals but didn't matter if we hit them of not what mattered was what we were doing that moment. I don't know I just had to write that down somewhere. It is something I've been trying to live by. I often forget it once in a while begin this slow slide down this path of focusing and obsessing on whats ahead and not on the present... well there you go hopefully it makes sense.
peace, love and shotguns.